The air was dark and damp, perspiration slipped from my brow as I found myself in a dark room, without an exit, with freezing temperatures. Contrary to these conditions, my body was burning . . . my heart was racing. Fear was present; its dominance echoed within the walls as the realization of no escape was apparent.
The room then morphed, and I found myself running alongside an old time film strip that began casting images of all that had transpired in my life over the past twenty something years. My running pace was steady; endurance the key to stay focused. Every couple of miles brought about another season of my life and another memorial stone placed.
Memories of life, death, and the in-between. Memories of pushing, stretching, pulling, standing still, and waiting. Memories of finally trusting, waiting, healing, restoration, and new life.
My running pace neither slowed nor sped up; keeping time with the visuals before my eye. Even when memories past, my heart rate would stay steady. As tears streamed down my cheeks upon remembering certain details my pace continued unwavering.
When the images blurred out to nothing but black and white I was still running. I found myself on a long unending road. My running shoes were well worn but I was content. It was raining and cold but I was content; still. I could see the sunrise coming up in front of me. It was as if I was running towards the sun.
I awoke with a peace within my heart and a knowing that endurance would be the key that would carry my loved ones and me.
For those who are looking for hope, peace, and understanding I would like to encourage you by saying ~
Endurance is trusting, being content with the place setting of your circumstance.
Philippians 4: 6, 11 – 13 Paul speaking on contentment
“Do not fret or have any anxiety about anything, but in every circumstance and in everything, by prayer and petition (definite requests), with thanksgiving, continue to make your wants known to God. Not that I am implying that I was in any personal want, for I have learned how to be content (satisfied to the point where I am not disturbed or disquieted) in whatever state I am. I know how to be abased and live humbly in straitened circumstances, and I know also how to enjoy plenty and live in abundance. I have learned in any and all circumstances the secret of facing every situation, whether well-fed or going hungry, having a sufficiency and enough to spare or going without and being in want. I have strength for all things in Christ who empowers me [I am ready for anything and equal to anything through Him Who infuses inner strength into me; I am self-sufficient in Christ’s sufficiency].”
“Contentment is not saying you are comfortable. Nor is it saying that you are at a place of final destination. Contentment is being okay with the ‘here’ and the ‘now’. Having a FAITH expectation of the things to come. Contentment is the balance in knowing our trust is in God alone and in due time He will meet our needs, our desires. Contentment is not a place to hang your hat and take up residence.”
As Paul says, contentment is a place of, “. . . being satisfied to the point where I am not disturbed or disquieted in whatever state I am in.”
Endurance the key ~ Contentment the balancing anchor
“When we allow our perspective of our present circumstances transform from what we thought upon it – to how God sees it, we can find His enduring strength to help us through this race we call life. “
~ Excerpt from Insightful Reflections of the Human Kind © 2012 by Jennifer Goodson
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